He had a horrible conviction that behind all this hypothetic statement there was a knowledge of some actual change in Mary's feeling.

他有一种可怕的信念，认为在所有这些假设性陈述的背后，都知道玛丽的感情发生了某种实际变化。

He really believed in the spiritual advantages, and meant that his life henceforth should be the more devoted because of those later sins which he represented to himself as hypothetic, praying hypothetically for their pardon: — " if I have herein transgressed" .

他真的相信精神上的好处，并且意味着他今后的生活应该更加虔诚，因为那些后来他把自己想象成假设的罪过，假设地祈求他们的宽恕：“如果我在这里犯了罪”。