To numb his desire for Cynara, Dowson seeks intimacy indulgence and joy.

为了麻痹他对辛娜拉的渴望，道森寻求亲密、放纵和快乐。

Dowson's referencing his unpredictable behavior, how he's been carried away in the wind.

道森提到了他不可预测的行为，他是如何被风带走的。