'I thought thou wast ahind me, Rachael'?

“我以为你在我身后，Rachael”？

'No, Rachael, thou'rt as young as ever thou wast'.

“不，Rachael，你和以前一样年轻”。

I thought that thou wast silent and that it was only she who spoke.

我以为你沉默了， 只有她在说话。

And thus truly, either by him or through him, thou wast looking after me.

因此，无论是通过他还是通过他， 你确实在照顾我。

Thou could'st not prize the rose and the nightingale, but thou wast ready to kiss the swineherd for the sake of a trumpery plaything.

玫瑰和夜莺你也不欣赏。但是为了得到一个破玩具，你却愿意去和一个猪倌接吻。

Thou wast more inward to me than the most inward part of me; and higher than my highest reach.

你对我来说比我最内心的部分还要深入；并且比我最高的触及范围还要高。

Thou wast always by me, mercifully angry and flavoring all my unlawful pleasures with bitter discontent, in order that I might seek pleasures free from discontent.

你总是在我身边， 仁慈地生气， 并用苦涩的不满来调味我所有非法的快乐，以便我可以寻求没有不满的快乐。

This I knew, but I was neither willing nor able to do; especially since, in my thoughts of thee, thou wast not thyself but only an empty fantasm.

我知道这一点， 但我既不愿意也做不到；尤其是，在我对你的思念中， 你不再是你自己， 而只是一个空洞的幻想。

But behold thou wast close behind thy fugitives--at once a God of vengeance and a Fountain of mercies, who dost turn us to thyself by ways that make us marvel.

但看啊，你就在你的逃亡者身后——既是复仇之神， 又是仁慈的泉源，你以令我们惊叹的方式将我们转向你自己。

And yet because I supposed the illusions to be from thee I fed on them--not with avidity, for thou didst not taste in my mouth as thou art, and thou wast not these empty fictions.

然而，因为我以为这些幻象来自于你， 所以我就以它们为食——不是出于贪婪，因为你在我嘴里的味道并不像你本来的样子，而且你也不是这些空洞的虚构。

But Thou didst speak to her, Thou didst teach her, Thou didst show her that her life lay open before Thee, and yet Thou wast ready to give her that blessing which she had never sought.

但你确实对她说话，你确实教导了她，你确实向她展示了她的生命在你面前敞开，然而你却准备好给她她从未寻求过的祝福。