Fergal Keane has been watching the fighting.

Fergal Keane正在密切关注冲突。

As a BBC war correspondent, Fergal witnessed some of the most violent events in recent history.

作为一名BBC战地记者，费格尔目睹了近代史上一些最暴力的事件。

Despite the danger, Fergal found himself going back again and again to report from war zones.

尽管危险重重，费格尔还是让自己一次又一次地从战区返回报道战区的情况。

When Fergal returned home from Rwanda, he started having nightmares – upsetting and frightening dreams.

当费格尔从卢旺达回到家时，他开始做噩梦——令人心烦意乱和感到害怕的梦。

Instead, Fergal turned to booze – an informal name for alcohol.

取而代之的是，费格尔转而去喝酒——“alcohol”的非正式名称。

Fergal knew it wasn't healthy, but he couldn't stop.

费格尔知道这不健康，但他停不下来。

We'll hear about some key events in Fergal's life, and, as usual, we'll be learning some new vocabulary as well.

我们将听到费格尔生活中的一些关键事件，而且像往常一样，我们也将学习一些新词汇。

Here Fergal takes up the story with BBC World Service programme, Lives Less Ordinary.

费格尔向BBC全球服务节目Lives Less Ordinary讲述了这个故事。

But Fergal's addictions made that impossible.

但费格尔的上瘾让这一切变得不可能。

You might expect Fergal to call it a day at this point, but that's not how addiction works.

你可能会认为费格尔到这个程度就到此为止了，但这不是上瘾发挥的作用。

Fergal's reporting helped his television audiences make sense of the horrors of war, but underneath there were more personal reasons attracting him to the frontline.

费格尔的报道帮助他的电视观众了解到战争的恐怖，但在这背后，有更多的个人原因吸引他去前线。

Fergal Keane, who was born in Ireland, had seen violence ever since the early days of his career covering the fighting in Belfast.

出生于爱尔兰的费格尔·基恩从他报道贝尔法斯特战斗的职业生涯早期开始就目睹了暴力事件。

Fergal had a nervous breakdown – a period of acute mental illness leaving him unable to cope with life.

费格尔精神崩溃了——精神疾病严重的时期，使他无法应对生活。

But what Fergal saw there shocked him like nothing before, as he told Mobeen Azhar, presenter of BBC World Service programme, Lives Less Ordinary.

但费格尔在那里看到的一切前所未有地震惊了他，正如他向BBC全球广播节目Lives Less Ordinary主持人莫比恩·阿扎尔讲述的那样。

In this programme, we'll be hearing about the extraordinary life of a well-known BBC journalist, Fergal Keane.

在本期节目中，我们将会了解著名BBC记者弗加尔·基恩非凡的一生。

Around the year 2001, it seemed that war was everywhere, and Fergal kept on reporting – in Sudan, Iraq, Afghanistan, and Lebanon.

大约在2001年，战争似乎无处不在，费格尔继续进行报道——在苏丹、伊拉克、阿富汗和黎巴嫩。

It gave him something he couldn't get anywhere else – a massive rush of adrenaline, and Fergal started to worry that he was becoming addicted to war.

这给了他在其他任何地方都得不到的东西——肾上腺素激增，费格尔开始担心自己沉迷战争。

Fergal had been addicted to alcohol before he arrived in Rwanda, but now he had another addiction to cope with – the need to keep returning to war.

费格尔在到达卢旺达之前就已经沉迷饮酒了，但现在他又有另一种瘾头需要应对——不断回到战场的需要。

It was obvious he was traumatised from the violence he had seen, but still Fergal didn't go to a psychiatrist – a medical doctor who specialises in treating mental illness.

很明显，他看到的暴力事件使他受到精神创伤。但费格尔仍然没有去看精神科医生——专门治疗精神疾病的医师。

In his new book, 'The Madness: A Memoir of War, Fear and PTSD', Fergal discusses living with PTSD, or post-traumatic stress disorder, a type of psychological suffering that results from witnessing extreme violence.

在他的新书《疯狂：战争、恐惧和创伤后应激障碍的回忆录》中，费格尔讨论了伴有创伤后应激障碍（PTSD）的生活。创伤后应激障碍是一种因目睹极端暴力而产生的心理痛苦。